Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself
And covered with a perfect shell
Such a charming, beautiful exterior
Laced with brilliant smiles and shining eyes
Perfect posture, but you're barely scraping by
But you're barely scraping by
This is one time, this is one time
That you can't fake it hard enough to please everyone
Or anyone at all...or anyone at all
And the grave that you refuse to leave
The refuge that you've built to flee
The places that you've come to fear the most
It's the place that you have come to fear the most.
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
Emo emo emo~ Here's a song that been listening to, 1st impression of it is kinda noisy, but when u sit down and slowly hear they lyric u will like go crazy over it=x
Well when you go, So never think I'll make you try to stay, And maybe when you get back, I'll be off to find another way.
And after all this time that you still owe, You're still the good-for-nothing I don't know, So take your gloves and get out, Better get up, While you can.
When you go, And would you even turn to say, I don't love you, like I did, yesterday?
Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading, So sick and tired of all the needless beating, But baby when they knock you down and out, Is where you oughta stay.
When after all the blood that you still owe, Another dollar's just another blow. So fix your eyes and get up, Better get up, While you can.
Ahh,ahhh
When you go, Would you even turn to say, I don't love you like I did yesterday
Well Come on, COME ONNN!!!
When you go, Would you have the guts to say, I don't love you like I loved you yesterday-hey-heyy
I don't love you like I loved you like i loved you yester-day.
Arrrg~ woke up at 10am + on the 15th of april! and i feel sooo werid~ For the pass few days~ when ever i woke up, hock will be beside mi, then i will nudge him and ask 'hock, wanna bath ma? ' then after washed up, willl see the other fellow Gls, see the freshies=(( but todae, when i woke up ,i am all alone:'( Went online, then i dun remember if my sub empire has our own contact list, then very very very sad, arrrg, missses all the freshies! we would like usually be cheering and having fun with the station games every morning...
Arrg~ slacked at the com, then asking around if other sub empire happen to have aytrax's contact ma, but all said no... Seeing the postcard the freshies written for mi, more sad sia... Sigh~ Went into mass conver but also cant find aytrax's contact, then finally at the evenig, managed to link link to one of my freshies and then finally got the contact! yay~~ toally mood changed=))
HA, got a nice song from raazmy todae and cant stop listening to it. theres the lyric~ the song is the song of my blog also=) If the hero, never comes to you If you need someone, you're feeling blue If you wait for love, and you're alone If you call your friends, nobody's home You can rum away, but you can't hide Through a storm and through a lonely night Then I'll show you there's a destiny The best things in life, they are free
But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder If you need someone, who cares for you If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder Yes I show you what real love can do
If your sky is grey oh let me know There's a place in heaven, where we'll go If heaven is, a million years away Oh just call me and I'll make your day When the nights are getting cold and blue When the days are getting hard for you I will always stay by your side I promise you, I'll never hide
But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder If you need someone, who cares for you If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder Yes I show you what real love can do
But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder If you need someone, who cares for you If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder Yes I show you what real love can do
Gosh, emoing for the day le. btw, Ayton join the forum, updates will mostly be at the forum there=) see ya guys for the next outing!
Mia for some days.. Decided to post something to cover up for the 'disgusting' pic from the previous post.
0900 - 1900 Slack-ed in front of the com for the whole day~~
1900 Chased after bus 27
1918 Reached ming xiu's house, got his jersey for the match then i found out that brought the wrong jersey for the match. Called ming xiu to comfirm, and its COMFIRMED that todae is wearing dark, but i bought white instead. Thought of just turning up at least, but waited sooo freaking long for the bus 80, changed my mind not to go as considering the journey needa back home later is kinda troublesome~
Pass by hougang POSB branch, wanted to drop my pay check into the box, but found out that i forgotten to write my account name and particluar on the check! Argg~ so many 'mishap' in a day!
1945 Walked to Hougang central, waited for about 1 min the bus 27 came le. The bus pass the Uncle Ringo fun fair -its like almost everyday i would by pass the fun fair, seeing all the fun people are having, hearing the screem of excitment they experiencing, wishing that you were be here. Glaring at the scence till i lost the view as the bus made a right turn to another busstop. What woke mi up was the noise from the bunch of kids which boarded the bus. They were so noisy and their parent- CHINA people - were also talking soo loud as if they were in their own bus. Kinda iritated by them but no choice so just endure, a Bus ticket inspector also came up at that stop. The bus ticket inspector ask them for ticket, the china lady nv pay for their child child ticket, and even got 1 uses kids card. The kids were obviously higher then 0.9m and the CHINA lady keep saying ' must pay? must pay? we alighting next stop ', ; the kid board mrt also dont need to pay lei' in mandrine. All were caught by the inspector and were made to pay the fares. Just pay la, there is no free ride one. Then i saw her face showing displeasure, i suddenly feel so good =D These people la, all the kisu and irritating one, u will know why when u work as the sales person in the front line. I alighted 4 stops later but they still haven alight. So i still poundering when is their 'next stop'. Reaching home, meng ask mi for swim tml, wanted to reply him but the battery went flat. So replied him when i reached home..
Back at home slack again, here's a song i really liked for the day~ listen for the whole day, its not new but i'm just 'feeling' it
here the lyric to it, * got english subtitle also* Guys look soo charming when they play the piano! hope you guys enjoy it 曲/詞: 周杰倫 Qu/Ci: Zhou Jie Lun Music/Lyrics: Jay Chou
Translation: zz – www.jay-chou.net
Verse 1
想笑来伪装掉下的眼泪 xiang xiao lai wei zhuang diao xia de yan lei Want to laugh to disguise the tears that’s flowing
点点头承认自己会怕黑 dian dian tou cheng ren zi ji hui pa hei Nod my head to admit that I’m afraid of the dark
我只求 能借一点的时间来陪 wo zhi qiu neng jie yi dian de shi jian lai pei I only wish that you can spare some time for me
你却连同情都不给 ni que lian tong qing dou bu gei But you don’t even give me the slightest sympathy
想哭 来试探自己麻痹了没 是 xiang ku lai shi tan zi ji ma bi le mei Want to cry to see if I’m dead with out emotion yet
全世界 好象只有我疲惫 quan shi jie hao xiang zhi you wo pi bei It’s like in the whole world I’m the only one who’s exhausted
无所无所谓 反正难过就敷衍走一回 wu suo wei fan zheng nan guo jiu fu yan zou yi hui Doesn’t matter, because even if I’m down I can ignore my senses and just get it over and done with
但愿绝望和无奈远走高飞 dan yuan jue wang he wu nai yuan zou gao fei Just wish that desperation will go away
Chorus
天灰灰 会不会 tian hui hui hui bu hui The sky is gray
让我忘了你是谁 rang wo wang le ni shi shui Will it make me forget who you are?
夜越黑 梦违背 难追难回味 ye yue hei meng wei bei nan zhui nan hui wei The darker the night, the more misbehaving my dreams, hard to remember and ponder about them
我的世界 将被摧毁 也许事与愿违 (也许事与愿违) wo de shi jie jiang bei cui hui ye xu shi yu yuan wei (repeat line) My world is just about to be destroyed, maybe fate is against will
累不累 睡不睡 单影无人相依偎 lei bu lei shui bu shui dan ying wu ren xiang yi wei Tired or not, want to sleep? Alone and nobody to pair up and snuggle with
夜越黑 梦违背 有谁肯安慰 ye yue hei meng wei bei you shui ken an wei The darker the night, the more misbehaving my dreams, who is there to comfort me?
我的世界将被摧毁 wo de shi jie jiang bei cui hui My world is about to be destroyed
也许颓废也是... ye xu tui fei ye shi… Maybe being blue is…
Verse 2
想哭 来试探自己麻痹了没 xiang ku lai shi tan zi ji ma bi le mei Want to cry to see if I’m dead with out emotion yet
全世界 好象只有我疲惫 quan shi jie hao xiang zhi you wo pi bei It’s like in the whole world I’m the only one who’s exhausted
无所无所谓 反正难过就敷衍走一回 wu suo wu suo wei fan zheng nan guo jiu fu yan zou yi hui Doesn’t matter, because even if I’m down I can ignore my senses and just get it over and done with
但愿绝望和无奈远走高飞 dan yuan jue wang he wu nai yuan zou gao fei Just wish that desperation will go away
Chorus
天灰灰 会不会 tian hui hui hui bu hui The sky is gray
让我忘了你是谁 rang wo wang le ni shi shui Will it make me forget who you are?
夜越黑 梦违背 难追难回味 ye yue hei meng wei bei nan zhui nan hui wei The darker the night, the more misbehaving my dreams, hard to remember and ponder about them
我的世界将被摧毁 也许事与愿违 wo de shi jie jiang bei cui hui ye xu shi yu yuan wei My world is just about to be destroyed, maybe fate is against will
累不累 睡不睡 单影无人相依偎 lei bu lei shui bu shui dan ying wu reng xiang yi wei Tired or not, want to sleep? Alone and nobody to pair up and snuggle with
夜越黑 梦违背 难追难回味 ye yue hei meng wei bei nan zhui nan hui wei The darker the night, the more misbehaving my dreams, who is there to comfort me?
我的世界将被摧毁 wo de shi jie jiang be cui hui My world is about to be destroyed
也许颓废也是 ~ 另一种美 ye xu tui fei ye shi ~ ling yi zhong mei Maybe being blue is ~ another sort of beauty
Arrg~ its 2am in the morning~ Really bored to the max.. Wanted to talk to her, but dun seems to get any reply=( Wanted to change my blog music, but dun seem to able to get it work even though i retried sooo many times. Haiz, drew this pic while i was at the com, stoning at the msn messenger for the past few hours.
Morning all~ haha~ Finally got myself up after lying at bed for hours from the disturbing slp=( Cant seems to bring myself to my lalala land todae. Online and dun seem to see anyone still awake=D haha~ saw raazmy and chat with him, as he also couldnt slp=P
haha~ just a random post of the song i listened just now=> its "i miss you" by westlife
i can´t sleep, i just can´t breathe when your shadow is all over me baby don´t wanna be, a fool in your eyes ´cause what we had was built on lies
and when our love seems to fade away listen to me hear what I say
i don´t wanna feel the way that i do i just wanna be right here with you i don´t wanna see see us apart i just wanna say it straight from my heart i miss you...
what would it take, for you to see to make you understand that i´ll always believe you and i, can make it through and i still know, i can´t get over you
´cause when our love seems to fade away listen to me hear what I say
i don´t wanna feel the way that I do i just wanna be right here with you i don´t wanna see see us apart i just wanna say it straight from my heart oh baby i miss you, i do...
´cause when our love always fades away listen to me hear what I say
i don´t wanna feel the way that i do i just wanna be right here with you i don´t wanna see see us apart i just wanna say it straight from my heart i miss you, i miss you i do...
i don´t wanna feel the way that i do i just wanna be right here with you i don´t wanna see see us apart i just wanna say it straight from my heart oh baby i miss you, i do...
here's the vid haha~ they look kinda cute in the mtv=D
yeah~ razzmy called mi and gave mi some advise=D haha, really kinda some times since we last had a good chat le. Sometimes it nt that i dun wanna try, just that tired some hints and if still cant, then no point rite? haha~
Will remember that quote u said " Its not about the finshing point, its about the process" =P Alright, Study hard! see ya~
Parents nt at home, i turned the music to the max when i came across the song 'Come What May', asked from raazmy de. Its a nice and emo song, but todae, i while it was sooo loud , i hear all the lyric soo clearly and felt sooo emo about it, tears soon roll my and i CANT BELIEVE THAT I'M CRYING IN THE 2ND DAY OF Chinese New Year! Omg, its really touching, wish that 1 day i can sing to the some1 i like also..=/ here the video i finally found from You-tube~ hope u guys enjoy it toooo~
