-i'm just a boy*.

Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself
And covered with a perfect shell
Such a charming, beautiful exterior
Laced with brilliant smiles and shining eyes
Perfect posture, but you're barely scraping by
But you're barely scraping by

This is one time, this is one time
That you can't fake it hard enough to please everyone
Or anyone at all...or anyone at all
And the grave that you refuse to leave
The refuge that you've built to flee
The places that you've come to fear the most

It's the place that you have come to fear the most.

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Mia for some days..
Decided to post something to cover up for the 'disgusting' pic from the previous post.

0900 - 1900
Slack-ed in front of the com for the whole day~~

1900
Chased after bus 27

1918
Reached ming xiu's house, got his jersey for the match then i found out that brought the wrong jersey for the match.
Called ming xiu to comfirm, and its COMFIRMED that todae is wearing dark, but i bought white instead.
Thought of just turning up at least, but waited sooo freaking long for the bus 80, changed my mind not to go as considering the journey needa back home later is kinda troublesome~

Pass by hougang POSB branch, wanted to drop my pay check into the box, but found out that i forgotten to write my account name and particluar on the check! Argg~ so many 'mishap' in a day!

1945
Walked to Hougang central, waited for about 1 min the bus 27 came le. The bus pass the Uncle Ringo fun fair -its like almost everyday i would by pass the fun fair, seeing all the fun people are having, hearing the screem of excitment they experiencing, wishing that you were be here.
Glaring at the scence till i lost the view as the bus made a right turn to another busstop.
What woke mi up was the noise from the bunch of kids which boarded the bus.
They were so noisy and their parent- CHINA people - were also talking soo loud as if they were in their own bus.
Kinda iritated by them but no choice so just endure, a Bus ticket inspector also came up at that stop.
The bus ticket inspector ask them for ticket, the china lady nv pay for their child child ticket, and even got 1 uses kids card. The kids were obviously higher then 0.9m and the CHINA lady keep saying ' must pay? must pay? we alighting next stop ', ; the kid board mrt also dont need to pay lei' in mandrine.
All were caught by the inspector and were made to pay the fares.
Just pay la, there is no free ride one.
Then i saw her face showing displeasure, i suddenly feel so good =D These people la, all the kisu and irritating one, u will know why when u work as the sales person in the front line.
I alighted 4 stops later but they still haven alight. So i still poundering when is their 'next stop'.
Reaching home, meng ask mi for swim tml, wanted to reply him but the battery went flat. So replied him when i reached home..

Back at home slack again, here's a song i really liked for the day~ listen for the whole day, its not new but i'm just 'feeling' it

here the lyric to it, * got english subtitle also*
Guys look soo charming when they play the piano!
hope you guys enjoy it
曲/詞: 周杰倫
Qu/Ci: Zhou Jie Lun
Music/Lyrics: Jay Chou

Translation: zz – www.jay-chou.net

Verse 1

想笑来伪装掉下的眼泪
xiang xiao lai wei zhuang diao xia de yan lei
Want to laugh to disguise the tears that’s flowing

点点头承认自己会怕黑
dian dian tou cheng ren zi ji hui pa hei
Nod my head to admit that I’m afraid of the dark

我只求能借一点的时间来陪
wo zhi qiu neng jie yi dian de shi jian lai pei
I only wish that you can spare some time for me

你却连同情都不给
ni que lian tong qing dou bu gei
But you don’t even give me the slightest sympathy

想哭来试探自己麻痹了没是
xiang ku lai shi tan zi ji ma bi le mei
Want to cry to see if I’m dead with out emotion yet

全世界好象只有我疲惫
quan shi jie hao xiang zhi you wo pi bei
It’s like in the whole world I’m the only one who’s exhausted

无所无所谓反正难过就敷衍走一回
wu suo wei fan zheng nan guo jiu fu yan zou yi hui
Doesn’t matter, because even if I’m down I can ignore my senses and just get it over and done with

但愿绝望和无奈远走高飞
dan yuan jue wang he wu nai yuan zou gao fei
Just wish that desperation will go away

Chorus

天灰灰会不会
tian hui hui hui bu hui
The sky is gray

让我忘了你是谁
rang wo wang le ni shi shui
Will it make me forget who you are?

夜越黑梦违背难追难回味
ye yue hei meng wei bei nan zhui nan hui wei
The darker the night, the more misbehaving my dreams, hard to remember and ponder about them

我的世界将被摧毁也许事与愿违 (也许事与愿违)
wo de shi jie jiang bei cui hui ye xu shi yu yuan wei (repeat line)
My world is just about to be destroyed, maybe fate is against will

累不累睡不睡单影无人相依偎
lei bu lei shui bu shui dan ying wu ren xiang yi wei
Tired or not, want to sleep? Alone and nobody to pair up and snuggle with

夜越黑梦违背有谁肯安慰
ye yue hei meng wei bei you shui ken an wei
The darker the night, the more misbehaving my dreams, who is there to comfort me?

我的世界将被摧毁
wo de shi jie jiang bei cui hui
My world is about to be destroyed

也许颓废也是...
ye xu tui fei ye shi…
Maybe being blue is…

Verse 2

想哭来试探自己麻痹了没
xiang ku lai shi tan zi ji ma bi le mei
Want to cry to see if I’m dead with out emotion yet

全世界好象只有我疲惫
quan shi jie hao xiang zhi you wo pi bei
It’s like in the whole world I’m the only one who’s exhausted

无所无所谓反正难过就敷衍走一回
wu suo wu suo wei fan zheng nan guo jiu fu yan zou yi hui
Doesn’t matter, because even if I’m down I can ignore my senses and just get it over and done with

但愿绝望和无奈远走高飞
dan yuan jue wang he wu nai yuan zou gao fei
Just wish that desperation will go away

Chorus

天灰灰会不会
tian hui hui hui bu hui
The sky is gray

让我忘了你是谁
rang wo wang le ni shi shui
Will it make me forget who you are?

夜越黑梦违背难追难回味
ye yue hei meng wei bei nan zhui nan hui wei
The darker the night, the more misbehaving my dreams, hard to remember and ponder about them

我的世界将被摧毁也许事与愿违
wo de shi jie jiang bei cui hui ye xu shi yu yuan wei
My world is just about to be destroyed, maybe fate is against will

累不累睡不睡单影无人相依偎
lei bu lei shui bu shui dan ying wu reng xiang yi wei
Tired or not, want to sleep? Alone and nobody to pair up and snuggle with

夜越黑梦违背难追难回味
ye yue hei meng wei bei nan zhui nan hui wei
The darker the night, the more misbehaving my dreams, who is there to comfort me?

我的世界将被摧毁
wo de shi jie jiang be cui hui
My world is about to be destroyed

也许颓废也是 ~ 另一种美
ye xu tui fei ye shi ~ ling yi zhong mei
Maybe being blue is ~ another sort of beauty

Labels: Emotions

ineedAlife. 9:28 PM

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Thursday, March 8, 2007

HA~ dun wanna blog wan, too much things to say le. Deleted the one i just posted, but here a great pic i found while i was having my dinner...

Hmmm, i felt my dinner still in my throat after i saw this.
Time to slp, nightmare~ WOOOOOOO!

Labels: Emotions

ineedAlife. 11:31 PM

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Wednesday, March 7, 2007

BOOO~
Woke up at 850 todae but went back to sleep till 11 plus=x
Up at 11, nothing to do, so decided to call calvin if he wanna have a game of dota=D
He picked up, but said he still wanna slp more~ Zzz...
So i played with some unknown people and till i found out that one of my team mate was from tp also! haha~ wat a small world.

Handphone rang, outing cancelled. Then the time is like 1pm++
So decided to ask jordon if he stil wanna go for swim=)
Alright, agreed on swimming, but abit worry as the weather was kinda dark. But the sun finally came out after awhile.
Bathed and prepared and took 27 down to meet him in Tampinese.
While i was on the bus, jordon called mi, saying that tampinese was having drizzling!
OMG, mood kinda dampem by that=( So i said we decided again when i reach tampinese.
Luckily, when i reach there, no more rain!=)
Went safra, decided to speant the money to buy 3 prepaid card as nv go out also..
Then the both of us walked from safra to tampinese swimmim complex~ The journey was kinda far=x kinda a warm up before the swim? haha~

Finally saw the sight of the swimmin complex, everything look sooo new to mi, i remembered the last time i came here was like when i was in primary 3! haha~ Soooo great of changes, also saw the sushi resturant which jordon mention previously about the 99cents sushi~ Maybe can come try it the next time=x
Bought the ticket to the pool, went in. Saw the mushroom like thing at the children pool^^The pool really look totally new to mi as there are really soo much changes!
It now even have a 'second layer' for people to have their sun tan here~

We walked further to the adult pool, then saw soooo many people- mostly are classes and classes of children learning swimmin~
Arrg, turn off sia, sooo pack! Jordon thought of going his house there and swim instead but we fianlly decided to settle down here.
Swam for a few lap then jordon complain that he's tired already=x
haha~ soo weak ar..
Jordon also keep commenting about those plump kids, telling mi that how funny they look in their swimmin costume. Z_z

Slacked till 1630 then finally decided to go off. Oh ya~ also saw alot children at the other pool having fun, and they even have like empire games and carry flag here and there! haha! Kinda like Foc those thingz!!!!
Walked pass the children changin room, asked jordon if he wanna bath here=x
Then reached the mens room, wa! SOOOOOO PACKED AND NOISY!! CHILDREN SCREAMING AND MAKING NOISE INSIDE! cannot tahan sia~ We camp outside a toilet to wait for our turn to bath.
Behind us, was also an adult waiting at the other door, then i saw the door opened, then he wanted to go in, then the other 3-4 children marched inside before him! hahahaha~ small children already know how to cut queue le. omg~ wat the world is coming to man!
Finally our turn to bathed.
Finished then mi and jordon walk to interchange for bus, on the way, he keep complaing that his arm pain pain pain~ haha~ weak la jordon!

Parted at the interchange then i went to my bus 27 bus stop.
Before i reach the bustop, i saw one 27 left..! Sianned for a moment then reach the bus stop hoping that the other one will arrive soon as it was like going to 5pm, which mean the bus will be freaking packed.
Luckily, another came in the next few minute and i board it home.
The driver was kinda fast and furious as he chiong the traffic before it turn red and so my journey back was very quick and smoooth=) haha~ All thanks to the brave driver=x

Reached home, haha~ gonna slack 1st ba.Arrg~ tml is the start of my busy weekend, gonna work at the pc show. ahha~ Hope this will be a fun one!!!
Alright, signing off here=)

Labels: Holiday~

ineedAlife. 5:25 PM

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Tuesday, March 6, 2007

yup~ finally got the song done! thanks yc! slp plz, dun drink sooo much coffee nxt time xD

ineedAlife. 4:30 AM

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Arrg~ its 2am in the morning~
Really bored to the max..
Wanted to talk to her, but dun seems to get any reply=(
Wanted to change my blog music, but dun seem to able to get it work even though i retried sooo many times.
Haiz, drew this pic while i was at the com, stoning at the msn messenger for the past few hours.

kinda random pic ba=(

Labels: Emotions

ineedAlife. 2:37 AM

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Monday, March 5, 2007

ha~ finally found the energy to blog..!

Went work yesterday, whole body was like in pain! arrg~ walk also pain sit also pain in short, any movement will cause pain!
Had a teribble time working. Even climbing the ladder to reach for shoe for take mi like 4-5min-_-, wa its been a long time since i last felt this type of pain.
Finally endure through the toughs hours and knocked off for basketball.

Reach Ang Mo Kio then saw most of my teammates there. Though of resting todae but also went to change eventually. Had a friendly then finally all ended at around 10pm.
Accompanied Ming Xiu for dinner at AMK central, ha~ but i onli ate some fruits then took bus back home.
Reached home about 11+, went online straight, saw her online.
Went for my shower and dinner. When i'm back, she gone=(
Slacked for a while then finally went slp.

Woke up at 9am todae then went zakum with yuan, haha~ failed both cuz 'toooo fast' le. Called Calvin at 11am and his still slping, haha~ he said to wake mi up but ended mi waking him up instead.
Met him at Rivervale Plaza then off to Hougang pool for swim, sun tan actually.
Reached there, gt a few people over there, changed then we jumped in to the pool. haha~xD

The water was kinda cold todae, calvin keep complain cold cold cold. haha! think he too skinny le la=D
Swam a few lap and also lied on the side of the pool to tan whil the sun is out.
The sun was not too scorching todae, but still able to tan ba.:) Talk crap with cal then went into the topic of smoking, nag nad nag him baout smoking telling him this and talk, feel so like an old granndy for the 30mins. haha~ Hmmm, hope he will able to think himself la xD

Finally decided to go when its about 2pm.
Bathed, then took bus back to Compasspoint for lunch. Dropped by RSH and chatted with eric, my ex collegue. He told mi the weiling, the one gonna go J8 to be the new incharge is working todae, but she went for lunch break now. so i went eat with calvin then back to RSH then saw her. Hmm, look kinda fierce, ha~ life gonna be bad le=(

Back home, sooo tired but i also blog okay~ ha~ gonna go rest for now. will be updateing=)

Labels: Tired

ineedAlife. 4:16 PM

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Saturday, March 3, 2007

March 02
haha~ kinda tooo tired ytd so slept early and nv blog=D
haha~ went movie ytd thats all=x Enjoyable outing with raazmy and **.
skip
skip
skip
skip
bleah~

March 03
Woke up at 10am todae.
Grabbed my hp, saw that the screen dun have light so i off and restart it.
However, when i restart it, the screen dun even appear anymore!
Omg omg~ i tried restart a few more time and seem that this time, it really hang dead on mi! Arrgg~ so lost suddenly! No hp, die already!!!
Arrg, thought of buying a new phone, but still gt about 3mths ++ to the end of my existing contract. Hmm, maybe song erisson w850i or Nokie N80, N70 or N72 seem to be a nice phone=D
Still donno to decide on which, saw the time, its 1030. Planned to to meet leonard at 1150 at novena station to go for home united traininin, now donno wan to go ma..
haiz~ stunned for a moment then decided to go=P

Bathed and set off to take the North East line. Reached Novena around 12pm, haha~ late for 10min=x
Met leonard and his friend there and so he bought mi to the trainin place. Walked pass Novena Square, haha~ 1st time! nv go b4!!!=D
Then walk to the the Police Headquarter.
Over there, the security was kinda tight, haha~ had to exchange my ic for entry pass and had to hang the pass over my neck while i was inside. Asked leonard, if we had to wear the pass for trainin ma=x haha~ haha~ he told mi of course no la, stupid question to ask.
Finally reached the court, saw a few of farmiliar faces there, haha~ my seng kang juniors...!
the coach came at 1230 like that, warmed up with some shooting. haha~ kinda lost accuracy=x
Then its the tough part, haha~ got to ran and ran and ran!! its been kinda long since i last had tough trainin..
haha~ then played some full court and then i got a leg cramp, kinda long time since i last cramp also. haha~ sat at there and relax for a while before the tightness went away.
Finally the trainin ended at 2pm + haha~ Slack for a while then bath and went to take cab back with leonard.
haha~ dropped leonard at changi hospital and then back to seng kang. haha~ kinda ex for the fare, $17.60. but think worth it ba, cuz i also not energy to take train back home=D

Back home, tried to deal with the phone again, but its still not working.=(
Finally gave up and went to get a short nap~ The weather was kinda nice as it was like raining!
haha~
Slpet till 8pm+ til my hp woke mi up! The phone rang but nothing on the screen! Arrrg! so scared and i press the reject button. haha! It rang again,i picked up this time. Oh, it was my incharge, weilin, she asked when i can work for next week.
haha~ then i realise my phone its still alive! just that it went blind=x

Saw raazmy online, he told mi he could lent mi one spare phone 1st so i dun need to rush into having another contract. He even came at 9pm++ to pass mi the phone. haha! told him dun need so kan chiong but he insist, saying that no hp later can sms her! haha~ siao la raazmy. But thanks you soo much yeah! He even came to give mi ritter sports! haha! the chocolate! =D
Was craving for some chocolate yeah! haha~ Ritter sports- quality in a Square=D haha!

hmmm, signing off here, ha! hope to talk to "u" online!

Labels: Lost

ineedAlife. 10:17 PM

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Thursday, March 1, 2007

Fianlly back home from the exhausting work!

Woke myself up at 9am todae, weather was like sooo good for a day long sleep=(
Slacked in my bed for a few mintues more till raazmy called mi then i went to prepare for work...Grab an unbrella before i set off to the busstop as it was having heavy drizzle.

Reached the busstop at 0945 but waited till like 1005 then i saw my bus 156 come.The bus travelled kinda slow as it was rainin, hence i smsed my in charge, wei lin, informing her that i will be slightly late.
Finally reached my work place at 1035. It was my 1st time working at 1030 as i usually start work at 11. This time, i had to help vaccume and mop the floor.
Shop opened at 11, and i was to continue my cleaning=P Went to clean all the shoes tray for the next hour or so till i am completely done with my cleaning up. Feel so like a 'maria' todae=x

Shop was kinda peaceful for todae, till i met my 1st annoying customer for the day.
Its was an Indian lady, somehow look like in her later 40s. She was looking for wei lin actually, but she had gone for lunch so i helped her to attand to her.
I took out the 3pair of shoes she reserved, thought she wanted to buy it, but she told mi that she had bought hers to exchange and wanted to try the 3 pairs..
Trying 3 pairs of shoes is still alright to mi, but while she was trying, she keep asking stupid question like , 'why is this pair the shoes lace for it are so short? and etc etc..
Come on, u choosen this model and so dun ask why the lace is so short k -_-''
She even ask for ruler, to measure the 3 pair of shoes! Hey, the size are all written inside the shoe and u asked for the size and u saw the label and now u want to measure the SHOE? haiz, gave her the measuring instrument for leg and let her happy happy measure the shoes she like. Finally she decided on 1 and exchanged.

Finally, lunch time~
It was drizzling but i still decided to walk to the coffee shop next blk to buy my lunch. Luckily, i saw my collegue, poh yee, she was off todae and she bought an unbrella with her. I escaped from being wet all thanks to her unbrealla. haha~Bought my lunch and back to the store.
Time passed so fast and my lunch break it over~ Back to work...

Hmmmm, todae was really a quite day and the number of customer i served for the day was countable=x
Oh ya, till the late evening and this indian guy customer came to mi and asked, ' U sell shuttleLOCK? u sell shuttleLOCK? ' with his hand swinging action.
I was puzzled, shuttlelock? wats that?? Finally he saw the shuttlecork placed on the shelve and took it. Zzzzz! so he was looking for shuttle corks, and he told mi shuttle lock..

It was like 8pm+ then kinda busy a little..
Finally, time to go home~ yeah, threw the rubbish and then knocked off with desmond and daryl.
Parted with them at the mrt station and i went to take bus.
Saw my 156 approaching while i was at the overhead bridge, ranto the bustop to catch it as i dunwan to spent another 20 mins or more to wait for the other.
The bus was fast and i reached sengkang in just about 30mins. Walked back home from the bustop and back online~ ^^

Woo, off day tml, hope to have some programme for tml also! haha~
thats all for todae, hope tml will be a better day!=)

Labels: Work

ineedAlife. 10:55 PM

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Morning all~
haha~ Finally got myself up after lying at bed for hours from the disturbing slp=(
Cant seems to bring myself to my lalala land todae. Online and dun seem to see anyone still awake=D
haha~ saw raazmy and chat with him, as he also couldnt slp=P

haha~ just a random post of the song i listened just now=>
its "i miss you" by westlife

i can´t sleep, i just can´t breathe
when your shadow is all over me baby
don´t wanna be, a fool in your eyes
´cause what we had was built on lies

and when our love seems to fade away
listen to me hear what I say

i don´t wanna feel
the way that i do
i just wanna be
right here with you
i don´t wanna see
see us apart
i just wanna say it straight from my heart
i miss you...

what would it take, for you to see
to make you understand that i´ll
always believe
you and i, can make it through
and i still know, i can´t get over you

´cause when our love seems to fade away
listen to me hear what I say

i don´t wanna feel
the way that I do
i just wanna be
right here with you
i don´t wanna see
see us apart
i just wanna say it straight from my heart
oh baby i miss you, i do...

´cause when our love always
fades away
listen to me hear what I say

i don´t wanna feel
the way that i do
i just wanna be
right here with you
i don´t wanna see
see us apart
i just wanna say it straight from my heart
i miss you, i miss you
i do...

i don´t wanna feel
the way that i do
i just wanna be
right here with you
i don´t wanna see
see us apart
i just wanna say it straight from my heart
oh baby i miss you, i do...

here's the vid haha~ they look kinda cute in the mtv=D

And girl i miss you, i do

Labels: Emotions

ineedAlife. 6:17 AM

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the great;

Yc
.1st appearance on Nov 8 1989
.Standing at 1.79m long

gimme gimme.
.a beautiful face
.chocolate!
.basketball
.lots of meso in maple
.my Cinderella